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If I had you! Part 27 °
Title: If I had you!
Fandom: Real Person / au / slash / angst / emotional
Characters / Couples: Johnny Weir / Orlando Bloom
Rating: Orange
Disclaimers: This story is homosexual love, if it does not bother to read!
Summary: Sometimes, when you're young, impulsivity can make mistakes.
Johnny
The period that followed, after Orlando because he did everything come to despise, I remember even now, and still can cause pain and deep sadness for all that I had to invent. Finally Alan vinto.Sarei
had become her boyfriend, willy-nilly.
Dover bear his humiliating position was firm, but I told myself that I was wrong and that was a way to atone.
finally closed my relationship with Orlando, I downloaded it over the phone-style villain but he, to my great surprise, he continued to pay me for the tuition.
When I sent a message to let him know that was not absolutely required to do so he said it began when one thing led completed, would fulfill the commitment he had taken with me and I would not have any obligation, even to say thank you.
It was really unexpected but breathed relief because Alan did not want to depend on it for a penny, if Orlando had not continued to help me I would probably have left school, and with what consequences did not dare imagine.
I began a period in which I felt apathy to everything around me was dancing when I was still the feeling of being alive.
Sometimes I dared to hope, hope that one day I could feel free from any obligation to dispose of my life and especially my feelings. I kept
Orlando constantly with me, he was the background of my thoughts, everything else will fall into place and sfocatamente surface.
heart was full of him, feelings that had given me giving me a lot of attention, without sparing anything, the love I felt for him almost immediately, he gave me the pleasure of being close in his arms, were constantly in me and I draw on to find the strength to endure that situation.
years passed and finally I came to graduate, and despite everything, my diploma, was decorated with bows of compliments and positive comments for the commitment and passion that I had shown.
the day of delivery I sorely wish that Orlando was there to attend to see where I had come with him.
Alan graduated the year before, immediately began looking for a write-in show, and thanks to the sympathy of a producer, was hired in a company that staged operettas , back in fashion for some anno.Avrebbe shot on tour to the States almost continuously.
So he left and I could breathe again the air of freedom at last.
my job to protect Orlando ended.
The danger of magic disappeared from our lives, but instead of feeling better he sharpens the desire to in me.
tortured me through entire evenings to fix the phone.
In all that time I had kept her jealously hidden number, I thought that maybe now I could contact him, but that idea quickly rejected it, what I could ever tell him?
Make me alive after three years and with what courage? Certainly would not believe me, I myself would never have believed a similar story.
I knew nothing of his private would also have had a history .. with a person more worthy of me, I had given him only a lot of fuss and trouble, I had the run of the dangers, I was clumsy, as well the threshold of stupidità .La only excuse I had was my youth, inexperience, but perhaps this argument was no longer sufficient by now.
He finally was free of any commitment to me, our story could be said definitively closed.
done with school I started to look for a job now.
Orlando
-guess at this by now that Johnny has obtained the diploma!-That thought went through my head as I I was shaving and with some haste.
-I do not care nothing!-almost exclaimed out loud and threatening to cut more than once.
This scene happened every time I left for a moment my thoughts are free to eat from my heart that I had buried under a layer of cynicism all around me now, especially in the affairs of the heart.
I had learned to look at everything with humor and nothing was more able to involve me emotionally and I was very careful that this state of affairs did not change.
-I learned my lesson now!-Every time the same sentence, I thought thousands of times over the last three years.
three years, during which Johnny take off from the mind had become a gym to do so manic daily.
Finally I was back on set.
After the film, which turned to Africa, which gained some success, he turned another who was a total fiasco, which I held for quite a while away from the camera.
This time I approached my work with more determination, I would not have done the trick again, this time I would have left the soul, I was sure I had to be sure, nothing and no one could stop me.
This time I would not let a pretty face bathed in tears and in need of protection put in over my life and my projects.
formulated that thought it was inevitable for me to think about my story with Johnny. I was still incredulous
of how he ended our relationship, I was still in his ears his words: I'm with Alan-
now! -
felt resentment mounted against him every time I think about it, I felt that I hate him and this helped me to bear all bear that I feel cheated, to have been manipulated by him.
Certainly, from the beginning, he knew who was in front and had the right attitude to come into my heart.
Well, it was an experience for me, I would serve for another occasion.
I finished dressing and left in a hurry.
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